My situation during the last month has been very unsettling. It seems that everything that I believed was secure, is suddenly not secure and I am left with a feeling that I must reevaluate my life professionally. Typical of life, when the professional life is chaotic, everything is fine with the personal life. I guess I should be glad that not EVERYTHING is falling apart. However, with my financial situation the way it is, it is hard to not take the turbulence in my professional life personally, particularly because it could potentially alter my life, and the lives of my family members, dramatically.
A little tidbit about me is that I am a sheep. I am not just speaking theoretically but I was also born the year of the sheep. My best friend often tells me that my personality is the personification of a sheep. I actually hate this trait and wish I could just rise above and refuse to live my life as a doormat, but I am not sure I even have it in me. Essentially, I feel like you just cannot win in this world. If you are too outspoken, people think you are too aggressive and you get in trouble. If you are like me and like to stay under the radar and follow the trend, people ask why you did not voice your opinion. My conclusion is basically that you are damned if you do, and you are damned if you don't.
Over the last week, I watched as a couple of my co-workers were let go. I was stunned. However, the most unsettling part about it, was that it did not feel like it was the end. It felt like it was the beginning of further change. The thought of losing my job is absolutely devastating, which leads me to feel the need to be ahead of the game. However, with the economy the way it has been, I feel like this is the wrong time, compounded with the fact that we have been trying to start a family. I guess the inevitable questions is whether I should be focusing on my career or my family. However, without enough income coming in, how do we enjoy our personal lives?
A little tidbit about me is that I am a sheep. I am not just speaking theoretically but I was also born the year of the sheep. My best friend often tells me that my personality is the personification of a sheep. I actually hate this trait and wish I could just rise above and refuse to live my life as a doormat, but I am not sure I even have it in me. Essentially, I feel like you just cannot win in this world. If you are too outspoken, people think you are too aggressive and you get in trouble. If you are like me and like to stay under the radar and follow the trend, people ask why you did not voice your opinion. My conclusion is basically that you are damned if you do, and you are damned if you don't.
Over the last week, I watched as a couple of my co-workers were let go. I was stunned. However, the most unsettling part about it, was that it did not feel like it was the end. It felt like it was the beginning of further change. The thought of losing my job is absolutely devastating, which leads me to feel the need to be ahead of the game. However, with the economy the way it has been, I feel like this is the wrong time, compounded with the fact that we have been trying to start a family. I guess the inevitable questions is whether I should be focusing on my career or my family. However, without enough income coming in, how do we enjoy our personal lives?
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