Motivation

Recently, I have come to realize that there are new opportunities that can surface if you open yourself to change. I have often shuttered at the thought of change, as it is unknown and scary. I must now find it in myself to embrace it, and view my past experiences (and mistakes) as having been a learning tool for my future experiences. I refuse to allow myself to be trapped and stagnant.

I cannot say that this sudden clarity was not propelled by recent events that have left me feeling lost. However, I have to look at today as the first day to the rest of my life, and deal with the situation I have now been presented with. I can only hope for the best. Perhaps I am also trying to prove my horoscope wrong, as it told me that today would be a day of rampant pessimism. Nonetheless, I refuse to be defeated, and will rise above it all. I will attempt to not be intimidated by anything that comes my way.

In reflecting on my life, I know that I am lucky in many ways. I am blessed with a wonderful husband who loves me dearly, a few notably caring friends and a generally supportive family. I have however also always been plagued with financial difficulty, basically for as long as I can remember. It just seems that whenever I believe that my financial situation is improving, something will happen which rocks my world. I am then again left with this completely powerless feeling, and need to find the motivation within.

So the motivational speech within goes something like this:

I know I need to stay strong. I cannot let this get me down. I have always been a very determined person. I cannot let it get to me. I am an asset. I have to be of the view that you learn from your mistakes and you grow. I cannot let it take me down without a fight. It does not define me. I will come out on the other side. I refuse to be weak. I will not make excuses and be a victim. I am a fighter. I will fight for myself, respect myself. I refuse to feel sorry for myself. I am not defeated. There is no reason to believe people will help you, so do it for yourself. Prove it to them all. I must keep my eyes on the ball. There is no point to lose focus and make matters worse. I have got to just hold my head up. Feeling down on myself will only make other doubt me. I will not fail. I refuse to be looked down upon by anyone.