Motherhood

During my first two weeks as a mother, there have definitely been many highs and lows. Many moments have left me feeling so frustrated that I began to wonder if I would ever get the hang of this motherhood thing. From the start, I had been afraid that motherhood would not come naturally to me. I just hope now that I will learn something new every day, and it will eventually become second nature to me.

I guess one of the reasons why I have been struggling with trying to transition into my new role is that there is really no rhyme or reason, no pattern, no real schedule to my day. It is quite strange for me to not have to go to work every day and have the familiarity of that routine. Instead, I am on a twenty four hour schedule which is all based around baby's feedings.

Soon after giving birth, I also realized the importance of breastfeeding. I felt enormous pressure to have baby latch, and I felt like such a failure when I could not do it that first night. Thankfully, we had a stern nurse who did not let me give up, and by the next day, it was happening.

Since being at home, there have been many other issues that have arisen which have caused much frustration including baby spitting up, diaper rash, engorgement and hip pain. I will most likely discuss these subjects in more detail in the future.

I guess what makes it all worthwhile is those quiet moments when I look at my beautiful little boy's face...and in that moment nothing else matters...