Depression...

Depression...emotions that have recently caused much concern for both the wellbeing of myself and my baby. Depression seems to almost be synonymous with pregnancy nowadays with all of the changes that occur during this time, along with the juggling act women seem to need to do in life. I definitely never envisioned that this would be a serious concern for me, however, now it seems to be the reality I am facing, no matter how I try to be balanced and maintain my mental health.

Perhaps I also had been fooled to think that I had a strong support system in place. Now being at this place in my life, it has become one of the loneliest times of my life. Recently, I have been feeling completely isolated from the rest of the world, and nobody seems to have the time of day for me. It is a completely helpless feeling that has made me find myself in tears sporadically. When trying to look at these emotions rationally, I know that there are so many changes going on both physically and mentally, that it is only natural to feel emotional. However, this does not make any of it easier. I had also thought that my yoga regiment may help in balancing my emotions as well, but it just makes me wonder how much more I would be spiraling downward if I did not have the yoga to calm my mind a little bit.

With my emotional state being the way that it is currently, I am truly concerned about post partum depression. The last thing I would want is to miss out on any part of my baby's life because I could not get myself out of a cloud of depression. I don't know where to turn...but can only hope to emerge out on the other side...